Oh I'm loving and living my life.

It started with a paper house, a drawing and a prayer. My life isn't perfect. I said to myself that I would take care of my family the way that I have envisioned years ago. I would play the role of the mom that would prepare for her kids snacks for school, when they get home I would help them with their assignments. I would not spoil them but teach them things that they have to know cause I can't be around all the time. Sabi nga ni Jesus "Teach them how to fish, and they will never be hungry again."

As for my Schatzy, I help him with his needs, prepare his food (not all the time) and take care of him. It not easy to juggle my time, it needs balance, right timing and determination to finish my tasks. I am happy that my planner is filled with events and tasks that makes me very productive.

The fulfillment it gives me makes me happy. At least the simple things that I was longing for during my childhood are experienced by my family.

She danced ballet...

My lil angel loves to watch kids, cartoons that have characters that dance ballet. One day, I have decided to bring her to a ballet class. She participated from the start. Listened to her teacher who is very good at her age... golden age! She stretched with her classmates. Look at her feet... she can do a tip toe.

In the end, the teacher told me that she is very young to learn (not for me).

I can see her passion that's why I enrolled her. In time she will be more than ready.... I know! hahaha

Been awhile

It's been awhile since I've been here... I have been busy lately which is good. When I look back at my past blogs I have been whining how boring life is. Now, I feel like I'm a grown ME. My career is beginning to blossom. All it takes is RISK and courage. I am finally opening my new baby soon. Hope it will be a hit. =)

Task almost complete!

I am almost done with my tasks. I am happy to blog again. Well, it is not easy to juggle with my roles in life. I am a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mom, an entrepreneur and a part timer.
I am surprised because 2 years ago I was telling how bored I was. I told my Schatzy yesterday that I am going to make a shirt that says "BUTI NA ANG BUSY HINDI NAMAN BORED! =)". It was really worth the wait for God's Time, now I have a lot of things to do. This time my hard word is paying off. =)

As much as I want to tell you all the work the I have done and working on... I have to go.

P.S.
I am getting ready for our plants vs. zombies tournament later on. hahaha.

Exam week ahead

Tomorrow my son will have his first quarterly exam. We reviewed awhile ago and I wish he will remember evrything we reviewed. I can feel the pressure. hahaha. He is just in kindergarten and here we are reviewing like he is in grade 1.... what happens next? nyahaha!

365 days #40

Meds!

It takes time to heal...

I tried to walk again but I end up hurting myself and my foot started to bleed again. I stopped so that it would heal. Yesterday I went to Holy Family Church and met a boy named Miguelle. He was so kind. He wanted to help me but his mom stopped him. He asked me where my sundo was told me to stay put so I won't get wet in the rain. =) He even asked me if his mom is sexy. I said yes. We all laugghed after. I would never forget the small act of kindness. I give credit to his parents for raising him in such a way.

Accidents do happen. =)

That afternoon, I called Schatzy to come because I was not feeling good but that time. I told him if I could take the day off. He told me that I could go but I need to be back after an hour. I opted not to go because I thought it was a waste of time.
Still with a splitting headache and the urge to go home to rest, I tried to work. I was transferring a not so hot cooking oil when the container collapsed… the oil spilled on my right leg. I was burned but did not feel the pain. I asked for a chair so I can sit and rest because I feel tired. Slowly I can feel the pain. The headache and the burning skin was not a good combination. Yes. Accidents do happen and I am glad it happened to me. I thank God that it didn’t happen to my Schatzy nor my lil ones and even my support group.

Crazy week is over.

It is indeed.

• My first time to fire a crew.
• I got my first major injury from work.
• I got hospitalize and my father, straight from his flight came to see me in a wheelchair with my right leg burnt.
• I almost lost my lil angel.
• Still can't walk from my injury.

I know I have to blog all about this but I still need to rest. So, rest indeed...

Catching up

I find myself waking up 5 am in the morning to prepare for my kids school. I prepare his things the night before so I won't cram in the morning. It's like I am back to the basics when I do all of the things for them. I dress him up bring him to school and back home then cook for the family and head to the store to work until the store closes. I still don't know where I get the extra energy. I sleep like 4 hours a day. I have 3 hours free time while waiting for my lil hero to finish school. Here I am blogging in a nearby internet shop just to past time. Sometimes, I do sleep inside the car. Imagine me all sweaty cause I am locked up inside the car.

As for me, my 3 hours free time is a gift that I call ME TIME. A time where I can Catch up with my blog while a moron in my side sings with ear deafening tone and a stupid asshole who reads my blog while I write it down here pretending that he is paying at the counter. =)

Catching up with my blog is on of the best things that relaxes me. It is a time that I feel that I am free to write whatsoever that it is I like to share and remember in case I forget things.

I will share this with you in my next free time:

• My first day at the store.
• How I cope up with stress
• Juggling time
• The Family is coming soon
  

Early bird

I woke up early today because my eldest and I are having a dry run for the his upcoming school days. I realize that we need to be awake by 6 a.m. and prepare for 45 mins then head to his school so we can arrive 30 mins earlier. I prefer being early cause I am a person who doesn't want to be late. I have this thing with being late. I would rather not go to class if ever I am late so I make sure that I am early. And being early means (for me) a chance to adopt to the environment. So here we are doing everything we could to stay up. hehehe.

The substitute

I asked Schatzy if I can enroll in a gym. He had an idea if we would rather buy a threadmill instead of going to the gym. We were still checking on what to buy. I like a smaller version of this...

Our house is small and I don't know how it will fit but I want it in our living room so I can run while watching Tv. hehehe.

Surely I will nag Schatzy tom so we can check out the malls. hahaha.

Names, names, names...

They say that I have a talent in giving names. I could recall the first name that I made was from my friends name ALEANDRINA. A because my name starts with "A", LE-AN got it from Lorelei Anne, D from Dang, RI from Cherry and NA from Joerna. So there, my first invented name. Then I wanted to name my first born Alizer which I got from the name ELEAZAR. I wanted it to start with the letter A. I said to myself I was suppose to name my kids Air and Ash but Schatzy would not allow me. I remembered when my bestfriend had her first born. We didn't knew the gender yet but they wanted L.J. as initial for the baby girl and J.L. for the baby boy. I said lets name her Layla Janaia. Layla was given by my bestfriend and I gave her Janaia meaning (Diyan sa NAIA) where there lovestory blossomed. For the boy, my bestfriend say a cute boy named JULIJO (like Julio) I gave a meaning JUly kse pinanganak ang baby ni LIng and JOm. And everybody laughed. Luis was suppose to be his second name.

And why am I writing about names now? It's because they have given me a task to name a resort. Hmmm... I can't think of a name right now. Maybe later!

Please don't quit on me!

My laptop is showing signs that he is ready to retire. I am asking for more time since I can't afford to buy a new one. Lafytuffy is a hand me down laptop from my father. He gave it to me 2 years ago after he acquired a new one. It doesnt have a battery so I have to plug it everytime I use it.
Yesterday, I started to cry when my lil hero accidentally removed the plug 9 time. for the 10th time I opened it... it wouldn't. I got angry with my lil hero and my emotions where soaring high. My laptop is one of those gadgets that I can't live without. I know it's just a material thing but it is really important for me. My Real Hero came to the rescue, Schatzy! He fixed it in a jiffy. I was so thankful because all of my pictures are stored here. I backed up everything. In case Laffy tuffy quits on me. I am still hoping that he won't cause I am attached to this gadget and I love him so much.

For the love of it...

We realized that our little heroes schedule will change our lives. We are going to put him to AM section so in the afternoon he will have time to rest, play and do his assignments. In my part, I have to learn to sleep very early (cause I sleep like 3a.m. already). I need to be strict with the task I give my kids so it will be easy for them on the later part. I am trying to homeschool my lil angel so she will be ready for next year(we will be sending her in toddler school). As for my lil hero he will be kinder this coming school year and will be adjusting cause we are sending him to a big school. I am trying to feed him a lot so he will have enough energy for the big change.

My parttime job is not as demanding like last Holiday. And my STB is doing good but my partner has to make a big leap so I have to make this work and make her proud. I understand that sometimes your passion has to be set aside to make way for your goals. I am thinking of strategies already and talked to several companies.

For the Love of all these things... I wish that i will have enough strength and wisdom for it.

LOST (the final chapter)

And it's back. We got addicted to this tv show a few months back and we finished the whole 5 seasons in less than a month. We waited for a long time and now it's back again. It means more quality time with Schatzy.. I am excited about the twist in the story. Yehey! So I have to stop blogging and start watching!!!

Another one bites the dust...

Kuya Bebot is gone... another heartbreaking news. I know he is happy wherever he is now...

Mixed Emotions

Right now I am experiencing different kinds of emotions.

Poignant - because our loving Toli left us a week ago and we will miss him a lot. Life will never be the same without him.

Fortunate - that God gave us ample time to show him that we love him.

Jovial – that finally he won’t feel any pain. He is free from all his suffering.

Vexed – for the reason I’m in a hospital again. Hope that my lil angel will feel better.

Empty – I feel so empty, I worry for my adopted family. I know life has to go on for everyone of us. He will be there to guide us.

Contented – that I did my best to be with him. I was not easy to see him like that, but I am so sure that he heard me when I said I love him.

Fulfilled – that he was in my dream. He reassured me that everything is okay.

The dream

I feel so tired. I am suppressing my feelings. Kuya told me to be strong but can I really conceal the emptiness I feel inside?
The first night that I have to be away from you was the hardest. I have to leave because my lil angel is sick. I had a dream that you were talking to me. I told you that I was sorry that I couldn’t be there. You reassured me that it was okay. All I have to do is take care of my family.

I thought that I would break down and cry when they are going to put you down. But when you visited me in my dream I felt ok. I felt blessed. I hope I won't be missing you a lot.

I am not superwoman!

I got sick today and so I was reminded that I am not superwoman. I need to take a rest. I am excited for my class on saturday about chocolate molding. =) I want to enhance my knowledge and maybe (just maybe!) turn it to my lil biz. I wish one more student will enroll so the class will have their minimum number of students. Happy happy Joy Joy!!!