Mixed Emotions

Right now I am experiencing different kinds of emotions.

Poignant - because our loving Toli left us a week ago and we will miss him a lot. Life will never be the same without him.

Fortunate - that God gave us ample time to show him that we love him.

Jovial – that finally he won’t feel any pain. He is free from all his suffering.

Vexed – for the reason I’m in a hospital again. Hope that my lil angel will feel better.

Empty – I feel so empty, I worry for my adopted family. I know life has to go on for everyone of us. He will be there to guide us.

Contented – that I did my best to be with him. I was not easy to see him like that, but I am so sure that he heard me when I said I love him.

Fulfilled – that he was in my dream. He reassured me that everything is okay.